FFVIII: Overwritten

[edenbound]

Fandom: Final Fantasy VIII
Pairing: Squall/Xu
Warnings: Angst
Rating: G
Summary: Xu, sick with jealousy. For over_look.


It wasn't that Squall was a bad commander. That, in fact, was one of the things that really sickened Xu. Squall was a good commander, and he'd be a brilliant one if he worked on his people skills a little. She couldn't even blame his success on his popularity, because ninety percent of that had been gained because he was good at what he did, and not just because he looked good (though she allowed herself the comfort that he was good looking, so perhaps that had gained him a few more supporters).

There was a time that she had held that kind of position, commanded that amount of respect. She'd been second to Cid, and he'd been second only to Garden's sponsors. She'd been the one people followed with their eyes, the one people sidled up to during festivals to ask favours of. She caught those same people sidling up to Squall, nowadays.

It wasn't that she really wanted it for herself, either. It was just -- well, she deserved that much, surely. She'd been a SeeD when he was still struggling to lift his gunblade. She'd taught him. And then he'd been given the rank of commander, elevated above her, suddenly unquestionable, untouchable, given rights she'd never even considered having. He'd overridden her, overwritten her place in the whole story.

She'd curse him, hate him, work to destroy him, something, just on principle, if she could.

But the most galling thing about it all was that she didn't really want to. That, in the end, she loved him, too.

Comments

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[feywood.livejournal.com]

I commend you for leaving such detailed feedback. I rarely manage to and when I do, it's never quite satisfactory.
I do wonder if you've ever heard about the rules of feedback. In case you haven't, the first one is: "start with something positive." No matter how harsh a critique you're about to write (and you certainly managed that), you should always start (and, as you did - flimsy as it might be - end with) something positive.

Furthermore, I think you come off as rather condescending, as you speak of what is acceptable and what is not.
Not to mention that I wonder whether you know the canon and the characters at all. The situation described here is very likely to happen. And even in real life, we often find ourselves hating and loving something/someone at the same time. I think this fiction conveys that nicely.

Lastly, I don't understand why you feel the need to comment like this when there is barely anything you like about this fic. That, combined with the way you wrote your feedback is highly demotivating and as such, not a useful or valuable feedback. It might amuse you to write it, but you are definitely the only one.

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[perotine.livejournal.com]

"Start with something positive" --- I have never heard this rule. If I can't say her technique is unacceptable, then you can't say my technique is unacceptable. Really, though, it's a moot point.

The fact that the situation is likely (which it certainly could be, but I thought we never learned enough about Xu to know how she'd feel) doesn't mean there's no need to explain. If anything, the things we would accept as given should be treated with more detail in order to make the scenario worthwhile.

I don't know why you think I would do this as a joke. Mine isn't. It was simple commentary. If I feel negatively about it, shouldn't I be even more obliged to respond? Not all feedback needs to be positive. Not all feedback should be positive. That's the kind of feedback I leave and that's the kind of feedback I expect to receive in turn. You simply can't decide who is and isn't allowed to critique your work; that's both immature and insecure. It's not befitting of anyone who makes any endeavor, especially a creative one.

"Well, actually, I thought it conveyed This. Hm, I see what you mean about That. What do you mean by ThatOtherThing...I'm not sure what you're talking about? Do you mean ThisOtherThing?"

That's an appropriate response. "You're a big meany and you don't like my work, so please don't read it!!" is not. Writing is not about the writer's personalities. It's about the writing.

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[feywood.livejournal.com]

Then perhaps you ought to take some lessons in giving feedback. I'm an aspiring teacher and they keep throwing this rule at me. It was part of an exam. Start and end positively.

Xu's hate or dislike for Squall is explained quite thoroughly. I think that going into detail about her love as well would take away from the story and make it less interesting.

I think you would do this as a joke because your commentary comes across as unecessarily condescending. It is, of course your right to be negative about something and you can voice this, but what's the point to be 'meaner' about it than you need to be? I think that if she considers your critique unhelpful and if it brings her down, she has every right to ask you not to comment. I know from experience that she is entirely capable of taking negative feedback and putting it to good use. The fact that your feedback only leaves her feeling negative about herself and her writing, is not a good sign and, to me, it seems the problem lies with you.

I do not see where you get the impression that her reply was an emotional one. She asked if you were the same person as last time, expressed that she'd taked your previous feedback into consideration but had found it unhelpful and asked you not to comment again. The closest to emotional she got was "I didn't feel like writing anymore" and that, frankly, is something no feedback should achieve. Your criticism is anything but constructive.

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[perotine.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter whether or not it comes off as unnecessarily condescending. It doesn't matter whether or not it's polite (which it was). It doesn't matter whether or not it was rude. You don't always get that benefit. I have been told both to only start writing again when I got a clue and to never write again for the good of all humankind. Feedback is feedback is feedback, and if you don't want some of it then you shouldn't be giving anything to critique in the first place.

Yes. Apparently a criticism I made was enough to deter her from writing. She chose to react that way, and that frankly doesn't bode well for her future. "Anything but constructive"---oh, come on. I pointed out some errors and asked her to write more. I am truly a terrible person. If being criticized even politely is enough to make her want to stop writing, then maybe she shouldn't.

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[feywood.livejournal.com]

I think that if you have any respect for the author at all, the way you sound is very important, but that might be a matter of opinion. Of course you don't always get that benefit, life isn't handed out on a silver platter, but it makes us all better people when we are polite.

I repeat, she has taken negative feedback well in the past. It has motivated her. The fact that it is only yours that makes her feel this way is a sign, to me.
You did not simply point out some errors. You talked of what is acceptable and all the things she did wrong, without really ever offering alternatives.
Again, it's not just criticism. It is your criticism.

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[perotine.livejournal.com]

I pointed out some errors. That's all. I suggested she vary her sentence structure and convey aspects of character rather than state them. Yes, it's my criticism, and if you or she think it was impolite in any way, then I'm very sorry for you both.

I was not cruel, unkind, "unnecessarily condescending", or impolite. I said nothing about her as a person or her writing as unfit for birdcage liner. The reason I came back to comment was because I haven't noticed any progress since I made my first comment---it's still the same cookie-cutter scenarios, with characters being essentially interchangeable from one piece to the next (not the case here, though), and the errors with syntax and structure are still there. There hasn't been improvement. That's why I felt another comment was necessary.

Now I see why there hasn't been any. I have nothing further to say because I can see it won't do any good, since my criticism apparently does not help her. But wait, she doesn't want help, because it's just for fun, right? Or something? I thought I was giving encouragement to someone who wanted to improve, but since she doesn't actually care about improving,I can see I'm wasting my time.

I am glad she has no aspirations as a professional writer, because she wouldn't make it to a first draft.

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[feywood.livejournal.com]

I beg to differ. Actually, I have differed several times already, but you don't seem to be listening.

You may not have been (directly) impolite, but being as blunt as you are isn't particularly polite either. And since you do sound condescending, whether you think so or not, you were not respectful either.

Has it come to mind that perhaps your critique isn't the be all and end all of feedback and that not only might you be wrong, she also has every right to ignore your feedback?
Yes, she does this for fun, but that doesn't mean she doesn't want comments or feedback. I know she cares about improving. But again, the way you're doing it is not the right one.

And there your true self comes shining through. Congratulations. That's low.

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[sugartits.livejournal.com]

I was not cruel, unkind, "unnecessarily condescending", or impolite.

I am glad she has no aspirations as a professional writer, because she wouldn't make it to a first draft.

Good job! You're an asshole.

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[sugartits.livejournal.com]

Okay, a second comment because my first was a knee-jerk. I apologise for being rude.

However, I find this whole situation very fishy. You've been through this before and as far as I saw it was quite dramatic and drawn-out, and yet here you are, back again under a different name, doing the exact same thing you did last time? You and Nikki discussed it, as far as I'm aware, and she told you that your feedback is not helpful to her, as she's done again in this thread. So why are you here, doing it again and being just as rude and stubborn as ever?

She's been perfectly calm and polite to you and asked you to stop, and you haven't. I think this shows exactly where the problem lies in this situation. I'm a big fan of constructive criticism and I've left it for people who didn't accept it before, and I've learned that hounding that person, yelling that they must accept what you say, does absolutely nothing but upset them, make them unwilling to listen to you, and show you up as somebody with no manners and no respect for them as a writer.

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[edenbound.livejournal.com]

I am glad she has no aspirations as a professional writer, because she wouldn't make it to a first draft.

I'm sorry you felt the need to sink to saying such a thing. :/ I had thought you slightly more mature than that.

I've been thinking it over, and discussing it with other people; it's not that I'm simply dismissing your concrit out of hand. I don't find it especially helpful and you and I do not seem to get on particularly well. I'm not sure why you've seemed to view me as a personal mission. The truth is, you always comment exactly where I feel weak -- when it comes to grammar, which I've never been taught in any way, in FFVI fandom when I was just trying to get a handle on the environment, and at times like this when, yes, I'm emotional -- exams, the death of someone important to me, etc, a time when I'm writing simply for the sake of writing and am not truly satisfied with it myself.

I do want to thank you, because despite upsetting me and being, to my mind, overly confrontational with both me and my fiancée, you have made me think about things. For example, I'm pretty well known for biting off more than I can chew, claims-wise, and I've decided to drop a lot of claims so I can just focus on writing for what I genuinely feel enthusiastic about. This isn't all your doing, it's something I've been considering for a while, but this has basically given me a push into doing it.

However, I don't want this to happen again, as whenever you've left me concrit, I've felt more discouraged than helped at all, and you honestly have come off as fairly confrontational (this is obviously subjective, maybe you don't think you have). To that end, I'm banning you from commenting on this journal, and freezing the comment threads.